I know a lot of mothers go through this.....a broken heart when a child leaves the nest and goes off to college or moves out on their own. I didn't realize how painful this event would be.
My son left for his first semester of college, and I know he will do great. I pray that he will be safe and no harm will come his way.
As we were hugging and saying our goodbyes (I'm still composed) he assured me that he would be back in 4 months.
To him, yes, it was only four months. What he doesn't understand is that it's four months of not being able to give him a hug or see his beautiful smile or have breakfast with him. All the things that have been a part of our daily lives for the past 19 years.
I started to feel a sharp pain in my heart as I watched him pull away.
It was at this point, that I broke down. I felt this huge wave of sadness come over my heart.
As if I wasn't hurting enough, I decided to sit in his bedroom while the sadness consumed me. My daughter came to give me a comforting hug, and as she leaned over to hug me, a huge smile come over her face as she looked at me and pointed to a heart shaped tear stain on my shirt. I couldn't help but smile.
On a happier note.....My son has never kept a journal and is not much of a writer. He will be doing a lot of traveling during his college years, and I wanted to make him a special journal just in case he gets the urge to write about his journey.
I placed St. Christopher (the patron saint of travelers) in the cover. I used a piece of Mica to cover the medal, which moves freely. Even if he decides not to write in the journal, at least St. Christopher will be by his side.
I know my broken heart will mend, slowly.